Monday, 7 April 2014

26 Greatest loves of my life - Let's call him...Geronimo. #atozchallenge



Geronimo was funny, co-ordinated and a sensitive 12 year old 'of distinction.' I couldn't let on that I liked him. I had already learned to keep my desires to myself.  He was even better at feigning disinterest than I was.

Our romance had a chance to develop when we both scored parts in in the chorus of Sweet Charity, one of our school's annual musicals. We had minor parts but all the cast and crew were expected to go on a weekend rehearsal camp.  Three days before the camp, Geronimo surprised me and asked me to be his girlfriend. Neither of us knew what to do after I said yes, but I couldn't wait to tell my friends.

I didn't see him again before we got on board the bus to go to camp. We sat apart. I thought he was avoiding me. We were the youngest cast members. We weren't as good at hiding our feelings as we thought.

On the first night of camp, some of the older girls told me he was waiting to see me behind the dormitory. I was terrified that he would try to kiss me. A real kiss.

Facing my fears. 26 Greatest loves of my life. #atozchallenge
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It was so dark, we could barely see and neither of us remembered a torch.  I needed to blow my nose but was too scared to sniff.  He held my hand, it was sweating. We leant against the back of the building and I froze when I felt him get closer.  He missed my lips. I should have sniffed. It happened so fast.  My nose still dripping, I was too embarrassed to move and I didn't want to hurt his feelings.

He gave me a nice long hug, and I wiped my nose on my sleeve. We were afraid of getting caught, and I was afraid of what the older kids would imagine if we were gone to long. We said goodnight and I felt my way back to the front of the building.

Three months after the final show, I wasn't even sure we were together anymore. We never had classes together, never played together and apart from greeting each other 'good morning' and 'see ya tomorrow' every day, we hardly ever spoke.

My friends asked me why we never hung out together. I was sure he was going to drop me, so I got in first.  After I told him it was over he went back to class and smashed a window. Later, I told him I didn't think it would upset him so much and he should have told me how he really felt.  He didn't speak to me for the rest of the year.  I was happy when he found a new girlfriend.
26 Greatest loves of my life #atozchallenge
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It never occured to me that he might have been waiting for me to talk to him first. Do you have a tendency to think the worst when you don't have all the facts? Have you got an embarrassing first kiss story?




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36 comments:

  1. awww poor Geronimo, he really did like you!

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    1. If only I'd known at the time, lol he really was cute.

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  2. I have, from time to time, thought the worst without having all the facts.

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    1. I think it's human nature - which is precisely why I insist on good communication :)

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  3. I think from time to time we all think the worst without all the facts.

    Loving these stories.

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    1. Thanks Shelly, I agree we all do it.

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  4. Relationships are so confusing at that age. Being a "couple" but hardly ever talking sounds about right, as far as I can remember.

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    1. So true. The confusing thing is why we even bother having them, I guess it's all about finding out more about ourselves

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  5. Did you ever wonder if you didn't end it when you did, how long before he ended it with you? Just asking....

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    1. Of course I wondered which is precisely why I ended it first.. I was just wrong about the timing. I never really understood why he liked me at all.

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  6. first kiss... most of the time is embarrassing ... i wish it was like movies, a cool romantic moment ...

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    1. aaahh the movie kiss, if only we could all act that good and had perfect direction.

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  7. I really enjoyed the way you narrated this love story! And the part about 'first kiss' is so cute! The akwardness of the moment, the confusing emotions - all nicely captured.

    Beauty Interprets, Expresses, Manifests the Eternal

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    1. Thanks Beloo, it's easy when the memories are still so vivid.

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  8. Awww...cute young confused love. That first kiss story was so cute...lol... :)

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    1. I would hardly call it cute... gross but very endearing perhaps :)

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  9. Such a cute anecdote. I like your theme for the challenge and will be back to read more!

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  10. awwww i feel so bad for the poor chap! but yes like you, even i tend to think of the worst case scenarios first :-(

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    1. me too and of we are all guilty of jumping to conclusions

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    1. *repeats sigh* I was happy to be his girlfriend, breaking up is never easy.

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  12. I think everyone thinks the worst some time or other. Maybe it's our own insecurities leading the way. It was a cute story. My first boyfriend was a boy I met at the pool one summer. We would hang out at the deep end (five feet) and hold hands, but only when we sank underwater.

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    1. Insecurities all the way. Your underwater story made me laugh, such a sweet tender memory.

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  13. Yes Sweet Charity - I still always catch my self singing *and the rhythm of life is a powerful beat, puts a tingle in your fingers and tingle in your feet... *

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  14. My first kiss was completely planned, after school in the schoolyard - with a crowd of kids to watch! Totally embarrassing!

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    1. Oh no a crowd...I would never have coped. I found comfort in the dark with no-one watching, we couldn't even see. Planned kisses came a little later for me ;)

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  15. I did used to think the worst and then act on that without asking the person what they thought. I think I was afraid to ask because I feared what they said would confirm my suspicions, maybe even be worse. I had to learn to communicate more, better. It's a work in progress.

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    1. I love how easy it is to find an answer when we ask the right questions. Communication is definitely the key.

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  16. Young love...sigh! this is such a sweet story that you told nicely. It only proves that communication is so important. Thanks for sharing a part of your life. AtoZer@ http://www.writer-way.blogspot.com

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    1. Thanks Michelle, no matter what age love can teach us how to communicate better, hopeful the lessons get easier as we get older.

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  17. Ah yes! I tend to self-sabotage like that a lot! Especially when I was younger. I think I'm more outgoing at this point - but yes, I do tend to think the worst before I get up the courage to ask. Thanks for sharing such a sweet story!

    The Road We’ve Shared A to Z

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    1. That nasty beast self sabotage...but i do believe we attract people that feed our insecurities when we aren't being 'outgoing' or confident in ourselves as well

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  18. If something that intrigues me then it is relationships!! Lots to explore. I am learning and correlating a lot from your posts!

    ~S(t)ri
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    Smile, it makes (y)our day!

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  19. I don't have an embarrassing first kiss story, Ida. But yes, I do tend to jump to conclusions at times - instead of thinking calmly and talking things over.

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    1. Hi Corinne - hope you are feeling better. My mother always said - no news is good news :)

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  20. I would love to read a story about that first kiss.

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